I don’t really have anyone to talk to or anywhere to write or anything to do. I don’t even have anything to snack on. My life is pretty much miserable rn.

I’m not titling this because that is extra work and do you know how hard it is to come up with a good title for everything I put in ONE post? There is so much content! I am the best blogger on the internet

I was having a psychotic episode for a few hours earlier tonight again, as always I mean. And it wasn’t pleasant. Now I’m writing to keep myself company. I think I misidentified a lot of my emotions. I think they are irritability. I don’t know why I should be irritable. But sometimes it’s hard to […]

smear smear smear So you say even if it’s someone else’s fault, you’re not allowed to work you’re not allowed to work? I’d say California’s labor law is a little shit-in-the-ass backwards

I think on it twice before I decide to be honest some more. Well what else do I do all day? … I forgot what I was thinking. There is still merit when you’re honest. There’s still entertainment value. There’s still value period. There’s a lot. I’m too tired I always land on the wrong […]

Bathed & showered, did French exercises, read just a tad of APoBT just a tad of proofs Didn’t do anything at work today Need to clip my nails again The same cycles always repeat themselves I never get used to it

What am I supposed to be doing? I am so confused. Someone, please help me. Rhetorically speaking. But in any case… The quick fixes only last so long. Microposts, doses of kratom, talking with mom. Where is the long term solution? I’m so confused. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I need […]

With my paranoia, my senior asking me if I want to train on the instruments this week turns into an accusation that I am wasting too much time. Sigh. I’m so fucked in the head.

I feel like I grew up, and now things are, so, formalized, and it’s not always been that way, so kids who grew up before me knew you could just do things all you had to do was DO them. My generation and ahead expect everything laid out. I don’t know if this is true, […]