I think this is the conundrum: Boredom does not feel like what it used to feel like for me. Adult boredom is different. And I haven’t realized that yet. I’m starting to realize it.
And I use my drug, kratom, to treat it. Which is bad.
I need to do something healthier, or at least not self-destructive, to deal with my boredom.
It’s more like ennui though.