I should be reading, at least an hour a day, and why did I stop my hobbies, the game design and the poetry, just because I got a job. That was no excuse to quit. I just bailed on all good things because I’m sick of life because probably the kratom is warping my mind, […]

8:30 PM, a minute till. The lack of kratom, like the alcohol, is leaving a hole in my heart. My primary preoccupation is no more. I wander around the house more than I used to. I don’t want to do anything else for more than a few minutes at a time, which makes it hard […]

I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like working, which can’t be building up good habits for my job next week. It’ll only have been two weeks since I heard once I start, though, so hopefully not enough time to get super-lazy. Super-lazy. The best skill. No one to talk to… No one […]

Went on my walk with mom. We went for the short version, not across the street and up the hill, because she was tired from work. Shame, I wanted to do the longer route.

Everything and everyone are annoying right now. If you say one fucking thing, you’re annoying. People and their garbage. No one realizes how garbage they are.

I guess I’ll just write as no one else does, to distract myself from the void, as I can’t read anything because of my ADD. I have a Dredge Black Green deck I need to work on for IRL Magic with family. Casual. I don’t really want to. It’s kind of a chore, just something […]

I thought my kratom was arriving last night by 9 PM but they make the tracking website so ambiguous and hard to decipher that I don’t know what’s going on, maybe it’s in Florida last night by 9 PM a shipping facility? I should check my mailbox. Well here I am, writing again. No use […]