I almost made it to 1 pm without ennui. It’s starting to kick in. No high = no fun. The kratom intake does nothing, I don’t know, it’s just an addicting thing. 23 cups yesterday without even morning intake. That’s a lot. According to a physical count. So, it’s more accurate. My approximations were all wrong.

But the important thing, and bad, is that I am feeling the need to do something, and I don’t want to do anything, so my life is ruined. Saturday. It was a good vibe this morning. I wonder if it’s the kratom doing this to me or just time at the computer mindlessly doing the same thing over and over again.

Life is insipid. I don’t know what to say.