Life Sucks

I don’t know what to do. I’m freaking out. It’s late at night and I’m not sleepy, I feel like eating something but I’m paranoid about my weight, a nibble here and there doesn’t change much so why not but noooooo. I can’t read and this fact alone decreased my quality of life a lot. […]

Father went to Florida to visit some beaches or whatever. The house is much quieter and calmer without him. It feels like a home when he’s not here. I wish we had this more often. Even my ennui is having trouble finding a foothold in my mind, which is a blessing. I want to work […]

Not living in Europe makes me feel like my life is passing me by. I will meet my true love in Europe, I will make friends in Europe, I will find job satisfaction in Europe. Everything, for me, is in Europe. And I have never lived there. How do I know these things? A connection […]

Mom wanted to walk this morning. I don’t know why we didn’t. We didn’t even come to a consensus. It just sort of got ignored. It’s really important she move to decrease her blood pressure. We’re being really lazy about it, lazy with her life on the line. Really not good. Have to be ready […]

Nothing to do. I don’t want to talk about my PSU/server. My hobbies are so contingent upon things. Now I need more parts, and to exchange stuff. It’s so annoying. I’m never up and running. It’s never cruising altitude. Fuck. Fucking Christ. When? Gasol is pronounced GAsol not gaSOL. What is there to do in […]