I can’t even breathe, the house is so tense and cramped. Father is always there, ready to be an ass, and mom is constantly bugging me about this or that. Brother is reserved and standoffish. Not a good family, for not a good household. Clutter everywhere, even my own room is not comfortable. I don’t know how to clean it because I just don’t.
I’m so tired of all of this. I want a normal life again. I want to be able to just amble around and not have to worry about being assaulted or fucking, distracted from my thoughts, or anything. I need some quiet for my mind to find peace. This whole thing is horse shit.