I’m starting to realize that I actually, not just, well, I use kratom as entertainment because I’m desperate for it. I feel I deserve to be happy after all I’ve done, after being a good person my whole life. But it’s entertainment I can’t give up. I don’t know what the definition of an addiction is, what a habit is, what a craving is. It’s all gray to me, and I feel medical care does a terrible job educating people on these things. You have to attend these intensive courses to bleed the information out of them, along with mostly crap.
It’s not set up well at all. It’s a really, really shitty syste.