My question is: What am I supposed to be doing? How do I generate meaning or value? For whatever, for whoever. For myself? For others? For the universe? Does the universe have a concept of meaning or value? I don’t understand. What am I supposed to be doing right now? I’m trying to just do what I want but that doesn’t seem to be working well. Mostly because I don’t want to do anything. Was I happier when I forced myself to work harder? I don’t remember. Or did it always come naturally? Life’s so unfair. I hate this.