I need to be more easygoing. What am I doing. I still have to do this. I think I’m a junkie.

I feel terrible for No. Fucking. Reason.

I have to work in lab tomorrow! Ahh! What if I can’t!?

Well it’s only training. You are, prepared, believe it or not. You’ve thought about it ahead of time. That’s good. That’s important. Gettin’ all spongeboob on me here…

Like spelling is important…

I disagree with whatever berates me, neurochemistry, sprits stalkers, who berate me, I disagree with them, so often and so strongly.

Why do I have to keep pushing? I’m in the comfort of my own room. There’s a bed right there.

Sigh.

I don’t know what to do.

Selfish. But you don’t know. You don’t know what it’s like.

I honestly don’t care what you think.

This is the universal language. And it’s broken.

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I don’t know, man. It’s confusing as hell. I hear voices and it’s like, empathy, and trash. That’s all. It’s broke and insane.

I’m not helping. I don’t know what to do.

I have to code this programming assignment for work and I don’t know how.

They say get lost in pragmatic problems. That’s just someone’s advice. How does that help.

I say just follow your own compass.

And it’s STILL gonna suck.

I don’t wanna be bossed around.

This is ridiculous.

I don’t know what to do.

People try to guess me like there’s some meaning to it.

But at some point I have to take a side. That’s just how it works.

And you know what: They don’t know what my side means. They’ve destroyed every last shred of all goodness so thoroughly that their argument is complete trash. They are stupid. Trust me.

So don’t worry. We’ll make it out of this one together. I’m sorry if you’ve suffered in front of me. But I see you are here to hurt me and I shall never know.

So it goes.

I’m tired. I’m done.

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