Lucidity. That is something I often do not have. The average man will question me and ask, why am I doing it my way? Am I mad? And act like it is a problem. I guess it is human nature to react more strongly than the repercussions, to build a buffer when next it comes, that the issue has a really true punishment. For now, it’s child’s play and I’ll just get scolded.
Isn’t that how it is. Didn’t I learn that with mammie?
I never had grandparents except up til about 5.
Well anyway. I guess I’m just weird and think about things a different way. I’m glad there are still the solid thinkers out there. I won’t call them the “normal” cuz that’s kind of offensive. Everyone wants to be special… except those who have had enough.
The real question is: Why do I go on so long, and why do I give my own guilty conscience so much fodder to toy with? To ravage myself with from the inside out?
Maybe I go read some tech news. Quanta or something like that.
Best to get involved in the real world.
I’M SUPPOSED TO BE CODING.
I always lose sight of the real task at hand. The real world. My reality is not real reality. I kinda like it that way! Back to work…