What my therapist says is actually worth a thought or two
It’s that, I should focus on general stress reduction and management techniques rather than addressing underlying causes of stress in my life. I don’t even really believe in stress beyond much more than just a catch-all buzzword bullshit that doctors feed patients and people with to try to keep them from dying horrific deaths, but…
There’s something to it. There’s science behind it, I bet.
I think the point he’s trying to make is destress, not address each individual fucking detail one-by-one.
I’ve defnitely been doing more of the latter than the former.
Blogging is a hybrid, so technically hikes are more efficient.
Which makes me wonder why I’ve had such bad psychotic episodes with hallucinations the faces in the forest floor etc. the world in suburbia a terrorist threat out to get me etc. all that.
I wonder why.
Every time I get angry people tell me not to. I don’t get it. Anger is legal. They don’t even know I’m angry but they psychically tell me not to, when I’m writing, here, now, in my room, alone.
I think I’ll be spending a lot of time alone for a very very long time.
After all this abuse from folks, to me, continues, it continues, I will be spending a lot of time alone. Guaranteed.
And I wonder what that’s like…