I was delusional and my coworkers abused me at work today during a video meeting.
I thought they were decent human beings but I guess not.
This was supposed to be like a high quality company but I guess it’s just part of the police state.
If anything I should (should have) expected it more from my company.
I said something drastically wrong at the beginning of the meeting that ruined the whole thing (actually it didn’t get in the way at all) and now they’re not going to hire me perm in 3 months.
Wow. I don’t know what to say. I described this poorly. Writerly timing is a concept but I understand it poorly.
I don’t know what I said wrong at the beginning of the meeting but it merited my coworkers abusing me the whole way.
The female is offering her sexuality no nvm she just changed her mind no nvm she is.
I don’t know how people can’t “sense” me when I’m muted and my camera is off.
Technology is strange in how circumventable is. That should be a success condition and all, but apparently it isn’t.
I don’t know what I said wrong at the beginning of the meeting. It was more of a stylistic emotional bad thing than a pragmatic scientific bad thing, which I found odd as I work in science.
Actually it makes no sense at all.
Or I guess I could have stereotypes.
I’m trying to hard to improve my life and do my job which improves other lives. It seems it’s all backfiring.
I don’t know what to do.
I’m going to throw away all the lessons.
Fuck you guys.
You two, my coworkers, you two are so low. It’s apalling.
Tell me what I did wrong next time. Please. I’m not that stupid. I can think.
You’re setting a really bad example for science.