But now I want to sleep and I don’t’ want to sleep because I want sleep to come naturally. I want sleep to come naturally. Why can’t it? Ugh. What’s wrong with my lifestyle. Someone please tell me. I don’t exercise enough. That is all. But what else? Why the rigidity of mind? This is unfair.
Dad sleeps like a baby. Mom can force herself.
Life is unfair. Life is very, very difficult.
Getting in bed right now feels like failure. I don’t want to be a failure. All my wires disagree with that process.
I want to sleep but I don’t want to go to bed a failure
Jesus. This is hard.