Finally, a mote of life in my life. What is this emptiness. This nothing that fucks me and fucks me again. I don’t like sex now or ever. What happened to nature.
What happened to anything.
I have an afternoon apt with my kratom get off kratom forever doctor. Ugh. There’s a doctor for everything isn’t there. I feel like my physician was disappointed the other day I didn’t want to go on thyroid hormone supplements. The test says mine is low. But, mom wants me to test again to see if it can recover on its own. I have to wait like a month and a half for that.
Well I don’t care. It is.
But my LIFE most definitely IS NOT. There is nothing to it. Why. I want more.
I want something at all.
I have a loving family. That doesn’t participate.
I have a job. That doesn’t keep me occupied.
I have artistic pursuits. That don’t nourish my soul.
It seems I have everything and everything doesn’t do its job nowadays.
Wonder why everything I depend on is so lazy.