I have no one to talk to. There’s no one in my life. My mother is like this, auxiliary object. She’s not even a real person.
My brothers and friends abandoned me a long time ago.
The doctors, they’re not actually their to help. They mostly just want to pat themselves on the back to improve their egos and get paychecks.
No one gets it, do they.
I’m clammy with cold sweats.
I don’t know why.
I haven’t showered in weeks. I feel gross. But I can’t shower.
I haven’t exercised in days.
I feel fat and stupid and lazy.
Why am I like this.
Why am I so unable to do anything.
I hate being alive.