So confusing. My mother, what does she really want? Me to feel alright? Me to be alright? Or something else? Something more selfish? This thought, does it hurt her? She thinks it does. But thoughts don’t hurt people. Is she paranoid, too? She believes things which aren’t true, but not to the point of mental […]

I examined the fact that I am alone from a different angle just now. It’s like, I don’t know how to describe it. But it’s just the mere fact that I don’t have people to talk to or do things with. That’s all it is. It’s not a death sentence, it’s not a gun to […]

I just have to survive today. To do: Clip my nails. I shouldn’t ask for miraculous things to just fall from the heavens. Friends, friendship, wealth, success, health. This is impossible. You don’t just get these things out of nowhere. I have to keep it up. The psyche. Perception of my surroundings. Reality is rather […]