When some really deep things that seem like pillars of reality, and they’re different so you must conclude you are different, but really the pillars were flimsy to begin with lul. Faggot.

So what is.

Hmm.

I mean.

I mean I submitted my book for review for publication, it’s competitive, but I think I have a good chance. My poems are pretty mature in style.

Plus it makes me feel like I did something. The voices in my head, my instinct, everything, my gut, was telling me don’t write poetrry don’t work on this book, work toward your career in web design finish your courses stupid. But I disregarded and finished the book. I said fuck the voices and did everything absolutely backwards and I think that’s what you’re supposed to do.

Now I have a book.

Now that I’m done with it, though (and no more edits, I really mean done), I can actually work on career stuff. Web design learning, game design more for fun, I don’t expect any money from game design.

I don’t know if I’ll ever make money as a web designer, either. Maybe the market is too competitive. Where to find clients. How to grow my client base if my portfolio is, well, work on the portfolio first I guess. But if I haven’t had any clients, how do I get clients. The ultimate career catch 22. How to get a job if you have no job experience. It’s stupid beyond recognition.

So.

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