My negative symptoms are so bad I’m going through crisis. Normally the delusions eat me alive around this time, and I take hydroxyzine and go to bed early. That’s been the norm for the past two weeks.

Today the delusions are gone, but I have no pleasure in anything.

I’m not sure if I should lift weights.

I have no chores to do. Nothing that’s like, “I could do it but I don’t feel like doing it but doing it would be rewarding.” I don’t have anything like that.

My life really is just empty.

I don’t think my therapist gets it. She’s such a fucking whore.

I hate professional mental care so much. I hate the people in it even more. They have no clue.

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