The evenings have been very hard to survive this holiday season.

I have no friends to hang out with, my family is not very, well, we get along but, they’re not friends. I mean, they’re not the same as friends.

I feel despair and despondency in the evenings and nights. This holiday season.

I don’t know what to do.

There’s no place for me to “hang out”, even online, neither in person. I can’t go to bars because we’ve decided I’m an alcoholic, and I’m on too many meds anyway.

I don’t know of any good discord channels, and I don’t have any forums I like. Reddit, not really. No good subreddits.

Everything feels hopeless.

I’m so fucked.

Sigh.

=(

I’m really worried. And I wake up, and some days I don’t do ANYTHING productive. I completely lose perspective of life goals at night, where I should be, how much progress I should be making, whether I should be resting or not. I have no idea what to do. I’m just completely lost. You’d think my therapist would help me, but she doesn’t. Therapists are way stupider than people think. Way.

Fuck.

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