I have a lot of problems. This is (one of the reasons) why I write. It accelerates the thinking process and helps me figure out my problems. Scientists will be scientists this statement has not been analytically evaluated. What I mean to say is, there is so much uncertainty everywhere, combined (short circuit in the […]

I’m horrified that my psychosis could return at any moment. It’s horrifying. And therefore, I’m not stable, from the tension of not knowing if it’s really gone alone. I’m not stable, I’m not sound, I’m not at peace. Also feeling really guilty at the same time, but fucking people don’t understand that I’m not capable […]

I don’t know where those resumes went. I applied to like ten jobs and haven’t heard back from any of them. Cue funny discussion about the theoreticals fantasy-like of what happened to the resumes. My life is mostly misery. I’m unemployed and live with family, so it’s a tragic misery–family doesn’t know what’s wrong. It’s […]

Brother is home. My family and neighbors do so much on a regular basis to hurt me (my nociceptors) and myself. And get in my way. They don’t get in my way but they hurt me. With their control of acoustic pressure spikes, or inaudible air pressure spikes, right into my nociceptors. So it goes. […]