Recoup

I’m not sure what to do, except this time, it’s not a total catastrophe. I took 3 namps today. The first namp: No dreams, restful The second namp: Restful; dream: Playing with imaginary words with the brothers, literally laughing in my sleep. The best. The third namp: Restful; dream: contemplating the philosophical underpinnings of medicine […]

I’m at this point in my life where, I’ve done enough damage to my brother that I just don’t even want to involve him in my life anymore. It’s not safe for him. It’s not healthy. He needs to live his own life, live, really live, not just take care of his schizoaffective older brother […]

This place is sort of the unofficial log of my schizophrenia. I am diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but I’m not depressed anymore so I think the diagnosis should be changed to bona fide schizophrenia but they didn’t do that because psychiatry is an ineffectuate shitshow. I can’t stay in my room too long because of […]