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S-s-scared I am slowly committing suicide, again…

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckface (me)

is

an

alcoholic.

 

n.n

 

This is somehow terrifying to me.

Why would it somehow not be?

Hmm…

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13 and Over

Whoa. I slept all night! Got to bed before mum went to work at 10:30!

It’s midnight. 13 minutes past as of the start of this post, to be exact.

I had that many drinks (13) ending the day 2 hours ago.

Could I use another bottle?

Yeah, kinda; I’m not saying I couldn’t.

Hurrrrr furk.

Besides that just being… um, too much? (I’m barely wobbling).

Huh.

FUCK.

I’m going to die of liver failure.

I have no idea how long it’s going to take because I only Google shit when my life depends on it, and, just, I’m, yep, that’s it, it’s fucked, I’m off, and my two brothers and parents are just gonna be fucked in the ass in grief and this is all fucked.

God.

*cries*

*sigh*

I can’t take anything seriously anymore.

And yet, simultaneously, I take everything more seriously than anyone else.

Fuck I’m gonna die and my family’s gonna grieve.

Ahhhhh fuck fuck fuck. I don’t know what to say.

I’ll try to get some more sleep tonight. The more I sleep, the less I can drink. Takes steel-headed resolve to think through hard times!

Oh yeah. Found a neat new song. I love the main synth!:

 

varjak~

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Stasis Trap

CONTENT WARNING: Hate speech.


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Ex’s Niece

Yes,

I’m premeditating the breakage of the crypto  market.

Forreal.

Is what I would have told her…

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You Should Have Showed It

I killed myself.

I am not around any longer.

If you liked me you should have showed it.