I don’t think my life is very normal. I live with my mother and father. I’m 32. I have two brothers but they moved out. Only recently. I was diagnosed with depressive schizoaffective disorder 8 years ago and my therapist agrees still that is correct. I don’t do anything most of the time. All I […]
I’m horrified that my psychosis could return at any moment. It’s horrifying. And therefore, I’m not stable, from the tension of not knowing if it’s really gone alone. I’m not stable, I’m not sound, I’m not at peace. Also feeling really guilty at the same time, but fucking people don’t understand that I’m not capable […]
I’ve come to a realization. To what has been bothering me ever since. Since I cleaned up and started being a prude. I can’t access my emotions. They’re locked away. It’s terrible. I can no longer let out my passion, in words or dance, or tears, or anything. I don’t have access to it. I […]
I’m going to try to make these posts more topical, or at least, to title them appropriately. If it’s just a general update post it will be called, like, “General Update” or something like that. Not sure how the commas work in that sentence, if I did it right… It’s easiest to resist the influence […]
Fuck you, kill yourself, die. You are the worst thing in my life. How did you get so powerful, as an aside?
Yes, I still want MDMA legal someday. Regulated, with therapy and support groups for those addicted, but legal.
I do not know do not know what I am doing But I feel lighter and freer Than before Something’s working I’ve got to keep it up The heaviness and self-loathing catch me off-guard Every once in a while But on the whole It’s better Still, I’ve got to write My addictions hold me Down […]
Split-lip // Counter corner grocery store chain Ball and- Fix Cannot escape Myself? I never never never never Let go Often Want Something Greater
Maybe the psychosis will just go away on its own. You know what started it? Pot. I had my first telepathic experience on marijuana, and it was excruciating. I still get spikes of it from time to time. If it IS pot, if I exercise enough the deposits in my fat should burn away. Might […]
Don’t move to America. There’s no freedom here. The government tells you what you can and can’t put in your body. Obesity-causing McDonals is a-okay and even encouraged because it stimulates the American economy, but herbal supplements that have been on the planets for years, long before humans got here, which have more of a […]