The only explanation is all healthcare workers and scientists, who rely on disease and problems for money, want them to stay where they are, and want to propagate as many as possible for as long as possible. This “machine of progress” is actually the exact opposite. It takes a few moments of thought to realize […]
My therapist is so incompetent that I am now so angry and anxious with my healthcare that I have been driven to drink. I just had therapy, and am drinking BECAUSE OF IT. That is an A+ Wow. Now I just have to strategize: What’s the best way to smear them for it.
I am so fucking restless and antsy. My retard therapist says to do breathing lessons. He doesn’t explain how to slow down enough to do them. I guess that is for me to figure out. He doesn’t even want to own up to the fact that it’s for me to figure out. He just omits […]
I’m starting to realize that I actually, not just, well, I use kratom as entertainment because I’m desperate for it. I feel I deserve to be happy after all I’ve done, after being a good person my whole life. But it’s entertainment I can’t give up. I don’t know what the definition of an addiction […]
Okay well–and I’m blogging about this instead of reporting it to my doctor, note that–I just took a bath and had some excruciating psychosomatic spikes of pain right in my mind. Fucking I thought I was dying. Jesus Christ. And they call them panic attacks. For starters, they’re liars, and they don’t want me to […]
I have to schedule my labs. There is a conundrum I cannot solve in my brain, of electrochemical network discharge, that makes things what they are. I cannot solve existence, I cannot solve Self, I cannot solve Other. Coronavirus is easy. It’s the wrench in the gears we wanted–are you happy yet? Or is it? […]
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