I’m horrified that my psychosis could return at any moment. It’s horrifying. And therefore, I’m not stable, from the tension of not knowing if it’s really gone alone. I’m not stable, I’m not sound, I’m not at peace. Also feeling really guilty at the same time, but fucking people don’t understand that I’m not capable […]

Recoup

I’m not sure what to do, except this time, it’s not a total catastrophe. I took 3 namps today. The first namp: No dreams, restful The second namp: Restful; dream: Playing with imaginary words with the brothers, literally laughing in my sleep. The best. The third namp: Restful; dream: contemplating the philosophical underpinnings of medicine […]