My psychosis is less intense and more predictable, in the evenings now, but also more frequent. Daily. This should make it more manageable with my psychiatrist, but I don’t see him for a month. WHelp. He may recommend some medication adjustments through the messaging system though. I just hope my account wasn’t hacked. I couldn’t […]

To try to explain paranoia what it feels like to someone whos never had it. Its not in your mind. Thats not how it feels. The world is menacing, sneaky, disturbing, violent, threatening. It is in the world around you. Somehow that means its in your brain, but it definitely doesnt feel like a you […]

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I wish there was somewhere to go. I have no life. I started using instagram but no one really posts that often or anything interesting. I mean, the product of the volume and quality of the posts is insignificant/little-to-no-difference in my life. These roasted chickpeas. Great snack. I’m not eating any. I need to learn […]

This place is sort of the unofficial log of my schizophrenia. I am diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but I’m not depressed anymore so I think the diagnosis should be changed to bona fide schizophrenia but they didn’t do that because psychiatry is an ineffectuate shitshow. I can’t stay in my room too long because of […]