The only explanation is all healthcare workers and scientists, who rely on disease and problems for money, want them to stay where they are, and want to propagate as many as possible for as long as possible. This “machine of progress” is actually the exact opposite. It takes a few moments of thought to realize […]

Oof, feelings, so pain, much ouwhch

I am really worried about my serious lack of progress in my career lately. I am to be studying for a career in data science and have made minuscule progress over the last few weeks. Things should move. Quickly. All work environments always say they are fast-paced. If I am not, I won’t fit in, […]

What Can Say!

I slept through a large part of the day after we got home from tennis. Nick wouldn’t understand what I’m doing right now. He’d be, think of the viewers, they haven’t caught up yet. Fuck you, man, I have got things to say I’m saying them. Fuck off. Brother middle at the park and vocally […]

This is interesting, guys, read it for once

I have data sceince homework, which is to read a science article referenced on coursera course website. And if I dont I am punished with Twitter use, because twitter is bad and unhealthy for the brain, therefore causing me schizophrenia. How an invention like this hasn’t been eyed suspiciously by the UN and human rights […]

My psychosis is less intense and more predictable, in the evenings now, but also more frequent. Daily. This should make it more manageable with my psychiatrist, but I don’t see him for a month. WHelp. He may recommend some medication adjustments through the messaging system though. I just hope my account wasn’t hacked. I couldn’t […]

I’m horrified that my psychosis could return at any moment. It’s horrifying. And therefore, I’m not stable, from the tension of not knowing if it’s really gone alone. I’m not stable, I’m not sound, I’m not at peace. Also feeling really guilty at the same time, but fucking people don’t understand that I’m not capable […]

My psychotic episode is still going strong. I don’t know what to do. Why am I like this? I don’t even feel nervous, about anything, or particularly bad/depressed. Just, psychotic. I’m losing control of my own mind. I’m losing my identity. So, antipsychotic medication for ya =/ Why don’t my pills just fucking WORK!? Why, […]

Might seduce your dad type

I’ve been blogging so long, and I’m on twitter for a while, and no one finds me. I find no like-minded individuals. I don’t know why. Everyone’s a prick. Everyone’s soft. Everyone’s into pop and brainless. Everyone’s this or that, but no one contemplates and adores progress. No one is an engineer with a tough […]